Pain release?

Ecclesiastes 3:4, 6-8 (NIV)

4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,

6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,

7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

I don’t know what to think!

I mean… I got a lot of thoughts in my mind n___n

They are thoughts of worries for the future and good memories from the past.

Plus other ones…

I have confusion in myself…

I got jumbled emotions, thoughts are scattered, and confidence is gone.

Time is irrelevant, hours mean nothing for me, days go by… time without end…

What day is it? Am I supposed to be somewhere else? With who and why?

FATHER, you made ME…

You made me very special and I don’t know how to Thank You!!!

All I can do is keep living my life as a living sacrifice!

I want to be serving You!

I want to glorify You with my actions, thoughts, and any other ways…

Father, I came from dust and will leave this Earth as dust!

I am nothing compare to Your awesome LOVE!

I had been struggling with a lot of things at the same time!

I got to be thankful for it all… but am very hurt Father!

I feel tired of this life and don’t have power to keep living this life of mine…

I know that you will give me the power to overcome whatever I am going through…

I know that You will provide the right people to uplift my spirit.

You will send Your angels to Me!

I want to be surrounded by Your love always!

My heart aches… I cry out for Help! Where does my help come from?

It comes from You, the Lord of Heaven and Earth!

You give many difficult trials compared to my friends and people that I know.

Many times I wonder why You do it to Me.

I know that everyone has different problems at different times…

I have cried a lot for all my pains that I go through...

I want to be free to live, love and to be ME!

It is really hard to be me.

I have many different ways to be myself.

I can be very quiet at times, I can be very funny and weird, I can be very serious about life, I can be very wild and crazy, I can be upset about people and things, I can be very caring and kind.

I can be many things… I can be a leader at some groups… but other groups…

I am like no one… like I don’t even belong there!

I have a life!

Yes, I do.

I want to be open to this blog and want to make a difference in this world with my writing and thoughts…

God, I want to listen to You!

Everything that comes from You is Perfect, Awesome and Good!!!

Thank You for Your goodness... I don't deserve any of it...

but you are awesome like that!!!

Thank YOU!!!