New month...

This was written Sunday (February1, 2009) 3AM!

What am I am going to do? I keep asking myself... every hour that goes by... every night that I am awake! In my mind... I wonder if I am wasting my time, if I do certain things.
I strongly dislike wasting my time doing certain things that won't give me profit or benefit to myself or others! I love to learn about new things!

Hahaa... kind of self-center... BUT... I enjoy helping others, it is something that I love doing... Helping others... when they need a hand!
Life is so complicated right now! I know that I shouldn't worry about tomorrow or what is to come in a few days! But the future lies ahead uncertain! Not knowing what's going to happen and where will I be in a year or five years...

I am so encouraged that I have this opportunity and read some amazing posts by some awesome people! It is very encouraging!

You know something... it is very hard to live your life when everyone is expecting you to do everything perfect just because you are defined as "Christian" or if you are smart! So when we mess up... they look down at us... but YOU know something... I am glad that my life is a mess... because I will grow spiritually and Trust in Him for the better!!!
But I know that whatever I am doing... I will do it for my God, the maker of the Heaven!!!

Yup, thanks for taking your time to read this...
These are some of my thoughts of mine for being up this late...
YAH!
I got church TODAY as like in a few hours... so excited...
looking forward to sing at choir and for God's word to speak to me again!

Take Care YALL! Have a great February 1, 2009!

Matthew 5:13 13"You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men.